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09-11-2007, 08:13 AM
yo i am 17 years old. over my 6 month long summer i experienced a lot of great things. happiness would probably sum up my main feeling for the summer. one of the reasons why i was happy near the end of the summer is because i met a girl who was 15 and lived 40 minutes away from me, yeah.. i know, young.. but she would come in to visit me and vice versa. i thought she was one of the cutest girls i've met in a long time, and we saw into each others eyes perfectly, whatever. so we started dating. she was jelous of me hanging with other girls that i frequently do.. and i would explain to her that she would just have to trust me, so she did and we got along really well.. until she started hanging out with her ex boyfriend again while i wasn't around. he was around a lot, so i called her up a week after we started going out and said to her maybe we shouldn't rush into things, and let's see if you still have feelings for him, and that i might have feelings for another girl.. cause i kinda did.
so she said ook. and kinda hesitated and said she might not like it, so i said well, let's try it.
so we finished our relationship after a week, and we went on to hang out normally, we didn't kiss, or anything.. she said she didn't like that we werent dating. but i said it's okay.. we're doing the right thing for now.
we ended up sleeping in the same bed one of the nights i slept over at her house, she told me some things like.. she wanted me to fuck her and shit so we just spooned and talked the whole night.
we played a game like , i'd ask her red or blue, she'd say either red or blue and i would tell her if she was correct. we played for about an hour saying lots of different random shit, until i came to the idea to say
" second chances.. or stopping altogether? "
she didn't answer, she knew what it was about. she didn't want to answer because she was afraid she would get it incorrect.
we fell asleep. the next day she still wouldn't say.. so i said that's cool. i went back home, 40minutes back home.
she told me later on msn that " it was the 1st one , whichever one that was "
and i told her "honestly, you make me happy.. but.. "
she inturrupted with " wait which one was the 1st one"
i told her it was second chances, she said "oh, i meant the second one.."
yeaaaaah yeah whatever. i just continued with saying " i think that we shouldn't try it again etc. "
i still liked her.
i started dating this other girl and i still am, and she messaged me saying " hey i'm glad things worked out with her :):) " and all that shit, so i said yeah thanks.. or something along those lines..
then deleted her off msn and facebook. i don't even know why i did?
she deleted me too after i did that
now she is dating her ex again.
but the fucking problem here is, i still think about her everyday.
like i still want her in my life because she made me happy.. and i'm afraid of how long i am going to wake up and have her as my first thought for..
i understand that i fucked things up, but how do i get things back, should i get things back, what should i do.
thanks
so she said ook. and kinda hesitated and said she might not like it, so i said well, let's try it.
so we finished our relationship after a week, and we went on to hang out normally, we didn't kiss, or anything.. she said she didn't like that we werent dating. but i said it's okay.. we're doing the right thing for now.
we ended up sleeping in the same bed one of the nights i slept over at her house, she told me some things like.. she wanted me to fuck her and shit so we just spooned and talked the whole night.
we played a game like , i'd ask her red or blue, she'd say either red or blue and i would tell her if she was correct. we played for about an hour saying lots of different random shit, until i came to the idea to say
" second chances.. or stopping altogether? "
she didn't answer, she knew what it was about. she didn't want to answer because she was afraid she would get it incorrect.
we fell asleep. the next day she still wouldn't say.. so i said that's cool. i went back home, 40minutes back home.
she told me later on msn that " it was the 1st one , whichever one that was "
and i told her "honestly, you make me happy.. but.. "
she inturrupted with " wait which one was the 1st one"
i told her it was second chances, she said "oh, i meant the second one.."
yeaaaaah yeah whatever. i just continued with saying " i think that we shouldn't try it again etc. "
i still liked her.
i started dating this other girl and i still am, and she messaged me saying " hey i'm glad things worked out with her :):) " and all that shit, so i said yeah thanks.. or something along those lines..
then deleted her off msn and facebook. i don't even know why i did?
she deleted me too after i did that
now she is dating her ex again.
but the fucking problem here is, i still think about her everyday.
like i still want her in my life because she made me happy.. and i'm afraid of how long i am going to wake up and have her as my first thought for..
i understand that i fucked things up, but how do i get things back, should i get things back, what should i do.
thanks