Leo_Zodiac
09-03-2010, 09:11 AM
I just want self respect.
That is my only goal, self respect.
I have been struggling my entire life with purpose. What is my purpose, and the purpose of this while existence that has been forced upon us by the gyrations of our parents.
If you remove religious and philosophical implications from the question. The answer to the question is rather trite, and unquestionably depressing. We are here to fuck. To breed, to last.
I really do look at the world eye to eye, I have spent a lot of time in my own head, thinking. I have had six years, by myself to think about what makes the world tick.
I don't want to be a pick-up artist. I want to be happy. My personal goal is true happiness, and I believe that in dedicating myself to the Venusian arts, I can at first, find a direction for myself. A simple carrot on a stick. I want to lose my virginity. No, I do not believe losing my virginity will solve all of my problems. But in this society, losing one's virginity is a rite of passage, something every man must go through in his life. Even though, my heart says that this rite of passage does not matter, my brain has been conditioned for over two decades to think otherwise. I believe that the venusian arts will help me with this simple life goal.
I wake up everyday, and I consider putting a bullet in my head. My life has no direction. I can't find a job, I live with my mom, and I was kicked out of the Navy last year, and I have not been able to find a job anywhere. I have no car, or license, or money. I spend my days looking for work, masturbating, and playing PC games. No one here has any right to know this, but I never talk about it, because I really don't have anyone to talk about it with. I am a pathetic loser, with no friends, no job prospects, and I'm sitting on a my Montgomery G.I. Bill because I'm afraid if I use it to go to school, I will become dissillusioned with my major, and quit, or fail.
I don't want to learn game to pick up girls. I want to learn game so I can improve every single facet of my existence. Even the philosophical ones.
I want to run game on my bosses, my future friends, my future wife, my mom, my dad, my bartender, my cat. I want to acquire a set of powers and use them to improve the lives of everyone I choose to surround myself with.
I know nothing. I am humble. I simply want to know more.
That is my only goal, self respect.
I have been struggling my entire life with purpose. What is my purpose, and the purpose of this while existence that has been forced upon us by the gyrations of our parents.
If you remove religious and philosophical implications from the question. The answer to the question is rather trite, and unquestionably depressing. We are here to fuck. To breed, to last.
I really do look at the world eye to eye, I have spent a lot of time in my own head, thinking. I have had six years, by myself to think about what makes the world tick.
I don't want to be a pick-up artist. I want to be happy. My personal goal is true happiness, and I believe that in dedicating myself to the Venusian arts, I can at first, find a direction for myself. A simple carrot on a stick. I want to lose my virginity. No, I do not believe losing my virginity will solve all of my problems. But in this society, losing one's virginity is a rite of passage, something every man must go through in his life. Even though, my heart says that this rite of passage does not matter, my brain has been conditioned for over two decades to think otherwise. I believe that the venusian arts will help me with this simple life goal.
I wake up everyday, and I consider putting a bullet in my head. My life has no direction. I can't find a job, I live with my mom, and I was kicked out of the Navy last year, and I have not been able to find a job anywhere. I have no car, or license, or money. I spend my days looking for work, masturbating, and playing PC games. No one here has any right to know this, but I never talk about it, because I really don't have anyone to talk about it with. I am a pathetic loser, with no friends, no job prospects, and I'm sitting on a my Montgomery G.I. Bill because I'm afraid if I use it to go to school, I will become dissillusioned with my major, and quit, or fail.
I don't want to learn game to pick up girls. I want to learn game so I can improve every single facet of my existence. Even the philosophical ones.
I want to run game on my bosses, my future friends, my future wife, my mom, my dad, my bartender, my cat. I want to acquire a set of powers and use them to improve the lives of everyone I choose to surround myself with.
I know nothing. I am humble. I simply want to know more.